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Animosity

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Published: Jun 12, 2013

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I don't see how we could ever get along.
Everyone says that 'when you are older,
things change,
you will see why she did all the things she did'.

I can't see that happening between us.
People grow up and forget
how it was to be a teenager.
Believe me when I say,

My eyes are open.

I am her worst nightmare made flesh,
thanks to the roles of two perfect older sisters.
I don't blame them,
It's not their fault for being so great
in my mothers eyes.

Lovely women, my sisters.
Perfect students in highschool and college.
In their twenties, married to husbands
who bring home the bacon,
and with a baby to smile at
or trying to make one.

I am a lesbian,
I will never have a 4.0 GPA,
I believe in god,
but I am no Christian,
and worst of all
I am a dreamer.

Every once in awhile
my girlfriend turns to me and asks,
"when are you going to tell her about us?"
I want to say tomorrow, next month, next year.
I want so badly to solidify a date.

But in my heart I know I can't,
through all her cruelty,
I am still afraid
to break my mothers heart.

I actually wrote this poem in 2010 but never posted it. But I read it over and thought it was something many people could relate with.

I came out to my mother not long after that after I graduated high school and moved out. She did NOT take it well, but you know what? She got over it. She loves me and Ashley now, and it took time but it did sort out eventually. I still am bitter toward her for an entirely different reason but we are civil and I do love my mother. We even get along now that we don't live together. So if this is something your facing, it feels so much better to put it out there and let others take it how they will then keep it hidden away! Believe me! I did it!

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